KiKi

It wasn't until after I left that I discovered just how much I love my sister. 

I mean I've always known that. I've always had this deep understanding that we were life partners. It's a relationship that's hard to put in words or explain to others because it belongs so much to the two of us, that no one else can really have any ownership in it, even in its concept. 

But any who, we were never really the sisters to sit up in to the late hours of the night telling our deepest darkest secrets and talking about boys and stuff.

We had a number of conversations that were very deep and vulnerable, but it wasn't a once a week occurrence. But now, since I've been away, I've really developed this understanding of how much I want to develop that side of our relationship and also, just how much her presence meant to me. 

Having an absence of it has left me ravenously thirsty for it. I can't wait till she comes next month.

So many times in the past month when JAM was just getting to be too much for me, or the work was getting overwhelming or the people were getting on my last nerves, or I just needed a good cry, I would message her. I've been really blown away with how God has allowed our relationship to grow even deeper once I started opening a new door into it. 

I've always had friends, so often in the past, I've overlooked my sister when it came to talking to her about frustrations, boys, future, struggles. I mean sometimes I would, like I said, but in the past, I'd always go to my friends for that stuff.

But now, here, to be honest, I don't really have friends. That's not really a luxury you get when you up and move to a new country, barely know anyone, and travel all the time. But, in that, I've begun to turn to Kristyn for the things I would have normally turned to a friend for. And man! I wish I would have done that years ago!!

I love my sister. 

Her wisdom really awes me sometimes. And her loyalty and friendship and incomparable. I'm never too much. And I never melt down "too often" for her. But every time she welcomes my emotional self with open arms and a good joke. :) 

I don't know what your siblings are like but my Kiki probably blows them out of the water.